Ill at ease

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Nowadays I remain ill at ease, I am operating against all odds. Lockdown has come rather hard on me for it is hitting me on my weaknesses. I am more ill at ease because instead of conceding to those weaknesses, this time around I have decided to fight them with all my heart. However, the timing is imperative here, which I got wrong I feel,, but now I have set on this path I do not wish to go backwards as I feel I am stronger than I actually am. 

Why I said the timing is wrong because for the past 25 days I have been all alone on my own locked in a small 2 BHK flat because of Covid19 outbreak and I have gone out only once to get vegetables, and other essential stuff. My point is if I had decided some other time to fight these weaknesses of mine I would be much better off. What weaknesses I am talking about? Well, some other time maybe. 

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