People Pleaser?

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Life has passed trying to please people;

And making sure that my actions or words are right and they mustn’t not hurt anyone. Always, as I remember in retrospect, I was pleasing someone or other in the bleak hope of winning select few with my utmost genuine efforts. Looking back, I don’t understand where I went wrong and why I failed in all my efforts?

A lot of life’s still left to live. Heart wants to continue pleasing people I meet for that is what gives it some satisfaction if not all. What about the longing of having it all? It does not know the right answer.

Who knows the right answer? Why won’t somebody tell the right answer? God? Why don’t you tell me? People say there is no as such right answer, but why? Am I not already confused enough otherwise?

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