Ashutosh's Musings

  Dated: 14.08.2022, 00:29 Hrs. Dear God, For the past six months, I have been really ill at ease. I have no control on my thoughts. You already know what has been troubling me, I keep sharing with you almost on a daily basis. But God, you don’t seem to help me either. You see me every day, I talk to you about it. The person I am right now, I do not want to be no more. Why wouldn’t you dawn something on me? God? The things, I believed, were my strengths, have now become my biggest weaknesses. I have started doubting all the things I felt so strongly about. And to top it all, I am often comparing myself with others. It has only made me feel insecure and vulnerable. I get attached to people first and when they fall out, I can’t accept that people come and go, but life goes on. On the contrary, my life halts and can’t keep pace with the world and people.  People only see what they want to see. I see a bit too much. I have never known any better or worse. Why am I so...